It's been 5 months since Ezra came In to this world and made our little family complete.
It's been 5 months since we became parents of two beautiful and healthy little girls.
Amazing to think that my husband and i will be celebrating 9 years this April. How it all began back In 2005 and we are here now. How our simple carefree lives have changed. It was an adjustment going from just selfishly living just us two to the three of us and now the four of us. Life is a blessing. We created these little humans and now are in charge of their little lives. We are their providers, their caregivers, their voice, their memory makers and captures. It's amazing to be a mother. I always knew I wanted children but was in no rush to achieve that. I say achieve because to me my babies are my biggest achievement. Amazing to think back when I found out we were pregnant five years in to our relationship and how it just seemed to be something that we both accepted because well we were in Iove and we didn't do anything to prevent it. The best decision we have ever made was to become a family and unite our lives forever in holy matrimony. I can't imagine my life any other way. I am where i want to be and with who I want to Share my life. In less than a month now I will have to face the biggest "real" challenge i have ever had to face in our relationship. My husband decided to join the force and give our family a chance at achivieving greater. I know that this decision came late in his life and it was a hard one at that. After going through out turbulances we decided that this was the best for us. I say we because we are a unit,but in reality it was my husband who decided To make this happen. For several personal reasons the most important one was to allow me to stay home and raise my babies. I will forever be thankful for his sacrifice. Funny how time has a way of changing our paths and how I see our life changed. I am faced with like I said the biggest challenge that I have ever faced, that is being away from my husband for over 5 months. In our 9 years of courtship we have probably spent no more than two months combined not consecutively. One night here one night there type of deal. We have been unseperable from the beginning. I mean it. It feels like I can't breath without him. Like I can't sleep or think without him. He is my soul my partner in life. Even when we went through a hard time three years in to our relationship is nothing compared to what we are facing now. He is my rock. He is my best friend. He is my relief at the end of a hard day. I don't know how I will be with out him. I know it will be hard and that we will go crazy with out eachother but it will be worth it. We have to stay strong for our little family and just push through because it is only temporary. I know I will keep my self busy with my girls and this time away will go by fast. Staying strong for my soldier and trying to comfort him once we are able to communicate again. So much can change in 5 months and it's the reality we are faced with, I want to document for him the time away from his girls so he feels as though he was never gone. Good thing is Ezra is young enough to not remember this time away and Isla is old enough to understand yet maybe forget that daddy was away from us. I don't want them to remember that part. I don't want to remember that part. It's not going to be easy but I know life will go on and I need to be strong for him and hold on my end of the deal and be his "lioness" I can't wait for October. I want to make sure that I update our blog so that the girls can have a time capsule and able to look back at our life as well as document our family journey.
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