Dear isla

They say you enter this world alone(unless your a twin, not in this case though) :)  although that is partially true I want you to know that you weren't alone, mommy and daddy have been and will continue to be by your side. You enter this world alone and you leave this world alone is what they say. Again you will never be alone. God willing when you have a lived a fulfilling and loooooooooooong beautiful life and you are an old lady, warm in your bed and god is calling on you once again you will be with us in heaven and not alone. Your whole life through mommy will be there when ever you need me and I will do my best to be there for you anytime you might need me. The reason for my post baby girl is because in 5 month you will become a big sister. We will changing your world and you are so little I don't want you to feel any difference, any changes. I want you to know that there will be no reason why I won't be able to comfort you when you need me. You are such a mommy's girl I love our connections and don't want you to feel left out or rebel against me. My heart hurts at the thought of leaving you already for the day I am at the hospital having your sibling. I hate when I am away from you. I will admit that I may struggle a little to get our routine going at first but don't worry, I will make sure that no matter what you won't be too affected. I promise you we will have our mommy and isla time just the two of us and I will always have time for you no matter what. What I am most excited about is that you you will gain a little companion. Being able to share your life with a sibling and make memories with your whole life through. We will make memories for you guys to remenese when you are older. I would love for you to share a strong bond and always have each others best interest at heart. Heaven forbid that mommy and daddy should pass away together or even at different stages I am at peace that in this big world you will have each other to go through life. To be able to know that whatever stage in life you are each in you will have one another to call upon. There is nothing more important than FAMILY. Remember family is forever! It's blood. So no mater what If I can bestow a lesson to you it will be that family comes first. I love you to the moon and back and I can't wait to see you in your new title of big sister. It will be something so beautiful to see. You are already such a little lover that I just know that you will make a wonderful sister. You are mommy's little helper. Already kissing mommy's belly and rubbing the belly. You are always thinking of your brother or sister. Always making sure at bedtime that you say good night to everyone and that includes baby! :) you melt my heart. So here we go little lady soon you will be a big sister and life will be filled with more memories! 

I love you through and through! 

Next chapter

I'm a mama... Iv loved being a mommy for  2 years and 8 wonderful months. Now we Are welcoming the birth of our second baby this fall! I have to say I am excited but more than anything I am little  nervous. Actually ALOT nervous. Iv read so many articles, books, blogs and what have you about how your heart just grows and you just do. I'm looking forward to my little family of 4 but I am scared. I have to share my heart my time with another little human. i know i can and i know i will be just fine. Becoming a mama the first was so natural. So easy and such a beautiful experience that I don't understand my apprehension. Life will be different but this baby is going to complete us I just know it. I know the instant I hold my baby and see their beautiful little face all my thoughts and my worries will be but a distant memory. I just love isla so much my heart hurts. I don't know how I will be able to make her feel no change I want to make this the easiest transition for her. Isla is my bigger concern I know that we will be able to handle that. I need to just enjoy my time with isla while its just the three of us and slowly we are introducing the idea of baby growing in mommy. And already she is a wonderful BIG sister. Constantly rubbing my baby bump and always wanting to cuddle my belly and saying little sweet things to baby in mommy's tummy. She gets it, she knows baby will be here after her birthday and I love that she is so excited. "Baby coming soon mommy?" "After my birthday?" So adorable right? I am so confident she will make a perfect big sister. I just know it. So just like that we made the decision to give her a little companion to grow with and to share memories. We were so on the fence a out another baby, we weren't against it but we just loved how our life was and felt so fulfilled that we thought isla would be enough for us. We would sit and talk and my husband and I decided she needed someone to grow up with, someone who would be there her life through. Be there for each other always. It's so important to have someone. Heaven forbid something were to happen to my husband and I at least they have each other.  So we begin the next chapter and accept with open arms all the adventures and trials that will come our way raising two beautiful children.