WARNING: I think this is my longest post yet. LOTS to cover people!!!!
OH and I say a curse word here and there. Sowey!
Her name is Isla (eye-la)
Okay okay well the husband helped too! In fact at times I look at my daughter and I find my self wondering if I am even her mommy! Or was I just the host?!!??!? I mean come on he might as well made her alone! LOL! I know I am ridiculous! If I showed you a picture of my husband as a baby and then you look at her AND WOW! Clones. It is so creepy how much she resembles him, he might as well been re born I am sure this neat for his mommy and daddy to see! Hi Olivia! Hi Frank! J The only thing this child got from her mama so far is the region down below! I got one too!!! Okay in all seriousness my daughter is beautiful, “There is only one pretty child in the world, and every mother has it”. -Chinese Proverb The best thing that has ever happened to me! We just celebrated her first year of life! What an amazing year it has been! I have been blessed with the perfect child! It all began February 5th, 2010 we found out we were expecting after the first test was positive I took another and it was + oh M GEEE we were pregnant! We happen to be at a close friends house after we had a nice dinner out decided to go to their place and have some drinks, well I wanted to take a test before I did any of this wine drinking we had planned. I am like clock work and I was 2 days late, although in the past I have been a few days late I had a different feeling. After sharing the news with my now husband I was shocked at his reaction, I was a bit nervous, apprehensive. I mean after all this is what we wanted, we had discussed having a baby and there we were two pee sticks later and we are having a baby! I loved his reaction, it was comforting! Right then and there I knew it was him for me! Forever! He was so excited his face lit up and I could just tell how much he loved and appreciated me! The rest of the evening we exchanged playful smiles at each other across the room. It was our secret. We didn’t want to tell anyone until the first appointment (well we filled in the owner of the house and his fiancée who was actually in the bathroom with me, we had to tell them since I was expected to drink that evening) before my first appointment I began to spot, so I was a bit nervous and asked to be seen quicker they sent me to get an ultra sound for high risk pregnancy since I have had a miscarriage in the past and was categorized as at risk. I was so nervous walking in to the office since usually I don’t ever go to the doctor or ER unless I am dying! I hate hospitals! It was finally my turn and I was on the table ready to get this show on the road, after a tech got started she asked me to take a pee break it was too full for a clear reading, more suspense! Eeeek! Back to the table, there in front of me was a picture on the screen of this “bean” or “gummie bear figure” and right in the middle of it a flashing something she explained was the embryos heartbeat. I teared up! CONFIRMATION! I was pregnant and the gummie bears heart rate was strong! A HEART RATE!!! This baby already had a heart!!!! My heart exploded! I was beaming!!! That little peanut looking this had stolen my heart! Immediately love at first sight! And I thought then I loved you! My little baby was on the way! I got a picture I got to take home to show off. I immediately texted my boyfriend the picture! I was over the moon! It would be sometime before my next U/S (ultra sound) But on April 2nd I heard the most beautiful sound in the world (at that time at least) I heard her heart beat! My little baby’s heart beat was strong enough for me to hear now! Through one of those Doppler’s thingy’s at the OB’s office. The way I was crying you would have though my mother passed away! I couldn’t control my tears! Isla gave me the best gift in the world! Music to my ears. The sound of her heart was enough to hold me over until I could see her again. The doctor gave me a big huge hug and congratulated me and let me gather my self before I left! Wow! Nothing in this whole entire world could compare to that feeling I got. NOTHING. There was nothing in this world that could bring me down from that cloud! Then 10 weeks later we had a U/S I was 18 weeks pregnant and this ultra sound was not what we were expecting. The tech did her thing and took her notes, looked at my boyfriend and I and said "im going to go get the doctor please excuse me". I was like WTH!?! What is wrong!?! The doctor came in and did his thing. After all was said and done he classified it under Down syndrome or form of turner disease. WHAT THE HELL! This is supposed to be out perfect baby! Apparently the fetus has extra fluid in the back of the neck which is a huge marker of that disease or down. He spoke to us like we should be mourning the loss of this baby. Saying if you guys make a change, please make sure to call and cancel your next visit ahead of time. WHAT?!?! He thinks we should have an abortion! He gave us details on having the amniocentesis and where we could have it done. This was a sure way of knowing if this child had any abnormalities, but with everything it has its risks too. What were we to do, we discussed this and weren’t sure what to do. Take this test and go through the anticipation of waiting for the results in which we decided to have an abortion after makes it that more difficult since the fetus would be almost 5 months! I proceeded with the blood work they normally do to run the number of potential
Genetic disorders. But there was a wait for both the amnio and the results of in office blood work.After more reasearch i was against the amnio testing I was devastated with the thought of having a sick child. Could we handle a special needs child? We asked our selves. Could we do it? We came to the conclusion that we both could NOT handle this responsibility. I remember being in the shower literally on my knees crying asking god to give me strength to face all this and courage to face my family members and standing by my choice of HAVING this child sick or not sick.Although my family was very understanding either way. I remember my mom telling me to have this baby and giving it to her if i didn't want to deal with a special needs. are you kidding? my mother's heart was in the right place and i knew she was right.this is my BABY. sick or not! God blessed me with being able to conceive and I was going to honor him, I was going to carry on with my pregnancy and care for this child special needs or not. Tough choice being so young. I told my husband and he stood by me. I could see in his face his assertiveness but he stood with me. I cancelled the Amnio that we had then decided to do anyway. Went to my next U/S and FREAKING NIGHT AND DAY!!!! We had a healthy PERFECT baby girl! What a change! The doctor told us there was nothing to be concerned about! My blood results were great! My numbers we high chance and there was no down syndrome no Turner disease nothing. I was prepared to have this child either way. I often feel like god was testing me and wanted to see my devotion to this unborn child he blessed me with. I was ready to take on whatever he gave me. The rest of the pregnancy was perfect and we had no complications at all. THEN it was September 24th I was not feeling Isla move very much and I was scared my due date was October 14th so I had 3 weeks to go. See this child was very active we had a routine; I would wake up to her kicks and nudges. Nothing that morning. I tried it all, sugar, cold water, lying, nothing. I called my mother in law and I told her and she told me I should go get monitored so she picked me up from work and we headed to Labor and delivery. I was getting contractions and I didn’t feel a thing did I mention at this point I was 80% effaced and I was 2 ½ inches dilated!!!! WHAT! So the nurse based on my ever so comfortable demeanor sent me home, Olivia (mother in law) and I went through McDonalds(i know i know yuck but i was craving this) I had a cheeseburger and she dropped me off at home. Literally 10 minutes after she left I was laying down and felt the sharpest pains I have ever felt in my life!!! I was hurting!!!! The husband was at his friend’s house watching a game and jacuzzing it. I made him come home. I jumped in the bath in hopes to find relief. Nada! I got out and was at the end of the bed squatted with these up up up up and fading pains. Was this its!?! Three weeks early? We walked around the yard and contemplated what to do. It was midnight at this point. We decided to go to his mom’s house that was closer to the Hospital where we were delivering. The contraction kept up. We were writing them down. They were 5, then 4, then 2 minutes apart. We walked up and down the street. I was at the end of the couch head on the arm rest and squatting. No comfort. I was so tired! It was 4 in the morning! I laid on the couch and they eased enough for me to sleep for 3 hours but right at 7AM (Sat morning the 25th) they began again very mild. I went to my parent’s house and my daddy walked me! Lol, we strolled and they got more intense. We went back to my mother in laws and stronger and stronger. They were trying to convince me to go to hospital I wanted to do most of my labor at home. I was finally brought to tears because of the pain and in a weird position on the couch trying to find comfort.picture this literly face down my butt in the air big belly sort of hanging there... They convinced me to head in, so I took a bath got dressed and we were on our way. Checked in I was at 5 and about 90 effaced! Okay this bebe was on the way! I was in pain they gave me drugs and it calmed some… what am I kidding I just felt drunk! still felt them.It delayed the process more. Asked if I wanted the epidural and yes I took it, I was numb! I felt my legs, my V and was like I feel like a corpse! My flesh felt like rubber! Yikes! Okay lets speed up… they popped my bag water everywhere, odd feeling, epidural felt worn off by midnight now the 26th oh i felt like I had to take the biggest Shit ever! Excuse my language but that’s the pressure I felt I was so scared because that was my fear. I did not want to shit on the table! The nurse reassured me it was normal sensation and we would start the pushing in a little! I was like NO; I have to shit RIGHT NOW! Or okay let’s push! She checked me and yes baby was locked and loaded. It was time. The nurse gave me my instructions had me start pushing at 1:10 doctor finally made it and I gave 3 big pushes, felt the “ring of fire” and “breath, bear down, push and out she came it took me 4 pushes 30 minutes born at 1:40 am September 26th! 5 pounds 10oz! My little baby! The whole entire time my husband was literary jumping up and down with excitement! He watched as they grabbed her and had me reach and touch her, helped me pull her to my chest and I was finally gazing at my creation, love at first sight! The hubby snipped the cord and she was no longer attached to me! Three weeks early and eager to meet us! She was beyond perfect! She exceeded our expectations! I was given kudos for how well I did as a first time mommy, they expected me to push for a few hours but NOPE 30 minutes and no yelling, or complaining, just simply breathing, pushing, breathing, pushing X2 more and she was out! The best day of my life! We finally met her! Our beautiful girl! Never in my life have I felt so fulfilled. I had a little family. I was married, and a new baby in two weeks span! Wow! Life was perfect! My daughter changed me and my world she makes me whole and made me appreciate my body for what it has given me! I plan to share this world and take it all in through her GORGEOUS BROWN eyes! Life is beautiful!
