Wednesday, October 29, 2014

My first born

Happy Birthday princess! 

Wow! 4 years ago on September 26th you gave me the privilege of becoming your mommy. I can't Believe you are 4 now. Daddy just got back from his training and we were still in California about to embark on our trip to our new home for the next 4 years in Texas. None the less we wanted to do something special for you and asked you what you wanted to do for your special day and you wanted to go to the aquarium of the pacific so for the second year in a row. The weekend before was the Santa Barbara zoo. We wanted to make it so special for you. So off we went on a "birthday surprise" you had no idea what we had planned for you, may be the last year we can actually pull off a little surprise for you.  We decided to take you solo just mommy and daddy and Isla date. We fully enjoyed you. So did you. We decided to surprise you with your cousin Eden joining us. You were so excited and so extreamly surprised at it all. After a fun filled aquarium trip we were on our way to gramas house where she had a little birthday planned for you. Frozen theme of course. All your little friends were There to celebrate with you and send you off to your new journey. We had such a blast and at the end of the day I had one of those moments where I realize that you were getting to be a big girl and that you were quickly outgrowing me. Made that clear when I carried you in after you fell asleep in the car and I had to carry you in since daddy was taking in your presents and your little sister. I carried you in and your legs hung off me in a way that made me see how much you have really grown. I love you so much and I don't want you to grow any more. I wish for time to stand still and let me take in all your cuteness and sassy quirky responds. I thank god for you everyday. I watch you as you sleep and your beautiful profile sucks me in and clarifies to me why I am so thankful. We have a connection that I have never had with anyone before not only because you are my daughter but because we're the reasn I became a mother and for that I am thankful. I love you little lady. I am so proud of the little sassy, smart,compassionate, little soft 
being you are. Stay that way my love

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Life lately


According to "our iPhones" the husbands and mine :) thank you iPhone for sorting them in date order for me. Technology is great!

In good ol' California  


First stop palms springs

Into Arizona we gooooo
Texas here we come 

Life is pretty grand right now. 

Happy HAPPY birthday BABY




I can't believe that a whole year has gone by and we are now here to the day you came in to this world and made our little family feel complete.i remember being pregnant with you and thinking about life with two and never really understanding how fast my heart would grow to be filled with so much love for you. 




Ezra OH Ezra you are a specimen of uniqueness! Mommy and daddy love you so much and he strong little personality you have shown us you are. You beat at your own drum and we all have to follow suit. We accept the challenge that is you. From the beginning you showed us who the boss is which is why you my little one hold the nickname "the boss" you came into this world October 22nd and completed our whole family. You made us a family of 4 made us feel like you completed us. From the beginning you you hit and exceeded your milestones with so much sass. You are so unique and we love that about you. 





You are walking and constantly "talking" we love you so much baby girl life will never be the same now that you have blessed us with your light. I look forward to see what is in store for us and watch you and your sister grow together and continue your sister bond. I especially enjoying hearing you guys go at it already and she how strong you are. We joke that you will be bulling your older sister around. "Though she be but little she is fierce" - William Shakespeare 


We adore you Ezra Rae Benavidez  I only pray that the lord give us a life time filled with so much joy and health for you. 





Happy Birthday my little girl. 

Monday, June 30, 2014

The road to you



I am at the airport killing time before my flight back to our babies and I am going over my last few days and wow! It was what I needed, a beautiful memory I now take with me and remenance on. When I made the arrangements to see you all I could do was think about seeing your face after 3 long months  apart. In our 9 years together we have only been apart 1 week. This was my first big girl trip. Here I am 28 years old and although I have traveled before,twice in fact to the state I was going to I never have done it alone. So here I was. Flight check. Car check. Hotel check. I was on my way to you. My heart lead the way let me tell you. So day of my trip was relatively early. Girls were in bed asleep as it was almost 5 in the morning. I got to lax and immediately got anxiety because I knew two things that plane was taking me to you and both taking me away from our babies as well. My heart was prepared though I needed to see YOU to reconnect with my soulmate. The first part of my trip was so smooth. I landed in to Dallas and boy I boy it all began.  We are spoiled coming from California this I know but not expecting the weather to play such a key role in all this is amateur. I mean you have told me all along that I should expect anything and everything as far as weather goes. Well I make it in and about to get on the "skyline" in Dallas airport to go to the gate for my connecting flight and it all is good then all of a sudden the voice over the speakers says all must exit and continue on foot to your gates due I the weather. What?!?! Apparently Dallas had not had any rain and was in a drought but on this day it came down grounding all flights!!! I was already at my terminal and I get a call from my airline telling me iv been put on a flight that would leave the following day nearly 24 hours later!!!! Making me miss your family day I sooooo looked forward to since the day you left. There was absolutely No way! So I couldn't do a Stand by since it was fully booked already! Noooooo. So I get on my phone and map out Dallas TX to Lawton OK And it was about a 3 hour drive. I'll book a car to my next car reservation. So that I did. only to decide to forget all that keep my car rental from Dallas airport.  I got a car and got on my way after I had to wait a whole hour before I was reunited with my luggage.so silly to me that my bags would fly as scheduled to my next location but I couldn't. Thanks AA. It's okay though because along the way I met some kind folks who were on their way to Fort sill for their son and boyfriends basic graduation as I was. The cooler part the other soldier was in your exact platoon. So I didn't feel alone. Being from California and being around only freeways all these interstates and roads confuse the H out me. So I mapped it and well of course apple app got me lost! I drove around different ways only to end up the same place but taking all different routes. I finally pulled over and walked in to the closest anything i found. Subway! A gentle man and his older sons were experiencing some sort of trouble processing their order and I walked in literally saying "help I'm lost" and they gave me all their attention. God bless them they had me download google maps and just decided to have me follow them and they literally led me to the interstate and exited as soon as they could. It was out of their way and let me tell you I am beyond thankful to them. That whole thing you hear about them saying in Dallas they are so kind well  I can definitely say this true first hand. So thank you kind gentle men. I seriously appreciate that you helped out a lady in distress. :) lol. So I finally made it to where I needed to be and a whole 2 hours and 43 minute drive ahead of me all was well and I was taking in the view with my google maps app going leading me closer and closer to the love of my life. Straight shot I tell ya! Passed a toll road and then my phone announced me my phone was dying and I was in the middle of no were not knowing my next move after the last direction. I had no idea how to get to my hotel. I kept driving thinking I'll have to pull over at a gas station in the middle of no where at 9  pm and ask for a quick charge or maybe directions. Well I was worried and all of a sudden my sign from god I look to my right and as you see on these empty roads announcing gas stations, lodging, my hotel had a sign with the last directions needed to get me to the hotel. (Thank you my lord you are good)  I check in and I am safe. Ready to take on my refund and cancelations of flight and car. In the phone for a couple hours sorting out the remainder of my trip since I wanted nothing in my way. All worked out and I got to be on time to my husbands military family day celebration and graduation. These last 4 days with you were magical. Just what I needed. To touch you and see your handsome face felt so surreal to me. I was with you and I felt like my self again. I felt empty until I was finally with you in your arms. Kissing you and just feeling you. Like I have told you numerous times before, our babies are my whole world but YOU are my heart. When I am with you I am complete. YOU make me ME. With this distance we just faced it let us know that we did not miss a beat. It's still just you and I. I am madly in love with you and you are so in love with me and I feel it in the way we connect. I couldn't stop smiling all weekend. I was on cloud nine on a high that I don't ever want to come down. And all I need is you to feel that high. You have made me so proud to see you be a better version of the wonderful man you already were. You are you and I love that. Your comrades expressed them selfs about you in a way that made me so proud to be your wife. Being in the whole military way of life was really insightful and gave me a great glimpse of the way life will be once we are all together and in the new life we will be sharing. Thank you again my love for giving me the gift of being a stay at home mommy and raising our beautiful baby girls. And I salute you soldier thank you for your sacrifices and for serving out country. My pride is through the roof and because of you I appreciate all these service men and woman who serve to protect our freedom. 

So thank you soldiers I salute you. 


Ps: that whole thing about a man in uniform... Oooooh my my... soldier you do it to me prvt. 

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Dear Frankie

I heard your ringtone at about 5:24 pm my time and instantly I couldn't believe it. My stomach started to tickle and I answered my phone and I heard your voice! Oh my god what a tease! You had bad cell service but it was enough to give me butterflies. At least I heard your voice and heard you tell me you were okay and that you missed us and love us. One minute is all I got but it made my week. That same morning after I made the bed I sprayed your cologne on my pillow. So random that when you called I was watching fireproof that couples Christian movie and my phone rings. I took it as a sign from god giving me hope and letting me know all is alright. Let's just say that night I had a good stretch of sleep since Ezra still wakes in the middle of the night 3 times but those 4 hours of sleep felt amazing all because I could smell you on the pillow that I was hugging. I miss you more than words can describe. I'm lonely without you.  Your letters have gotten me through a little I just can't wait until I can write you. 
The girls love you do much and are missing you too. Here are some pictures of our week. 
Our visit with cousin Eden :) 
I finally got to go to ikea and this is what Ezra thought of it :) 

At her 6 month check up :) 

This was the week ending on 20140426 :) getting some military training my self. Iv been reading a book called "married to the military" to try and gather some insight on our new life. I'm trying papa. 

I life you and I miss you!