Mommy guilt of two.

From my drafts;

I don't have guilt in the sense that I feel over whelmed with two kids and can't handle it at times, because sometimes it gets a little tiring but its because I am human. Although at times I struggle to balance life with my girls thats not my guilt. My guilt is that I did so much with my first born and feel bad trying to catch up with my second. I pride my self in the ability to be able to be a well balanced mother of two. what do for one I do for the other. ALWAYS. I like to take the time individually for both for some mommy and me alone time swell as the three of us. However my girls both have journals I have been writing for them during my pregnancy and their little lives going on but Isla's is a little more decorative. I try so hard to keep up with it, but at times it seems to fall short. I just want my girls to know that they don't need to judge my love, attention on what I do for either but simply for the memories they can remember.

I have read so much that I am not the only one who feels way, I find a little comfort but I just want to feel as though I do my best. my goal is to be sure that both my girls feel loved... evenly. I love each one of who they are individually. never one more than the other.
 Just a little something that I want to share.

Isla

I love the way you are such a sweet heart. I love that you are so caring and always so in tuned to others emotions.

I love the spirit you have

I love that you are such a girly girl

I love that you can offer so much with just your smile.

I love that you are so creative.

I love the way you have a way are so intential with your feelings and consideration

Ezra

I love the way you are set in our little ways. in the beginning it was hard for mommy to get over because as a newborn you knew what you wanted and there is no denying. That characteristic made you such an individual born to stand out.

I love the way you are so whitty.

I love that you have such a sense of adventure always

I love that you are strong.

I love that you are unapologetically you 

I love that you are so blunt